pathetic :p Just done reading a Wattpad story entitled "I Met a Jerk Named Seven". Somehow that story triggered the past to be remembered. Haaaay...
I just had a bucket of tears (exaggeration..dope!).
It talks about somebody who has been all alone after a tragic event in her life. She lost her dad and eventually lost her mom as well. Her mom who lost her mind somehow and even tried to kill her. She haven't felt the love and affection she yearned for. And she was even fooled by the thoughts and thirst of having someone to love and care for her to the extent that she had been a selfish bitch and even considered to give up her best friend who trusted her.
But there is this guy who tried to make fun of her simply because he had caught her doing the utmost stupidity ever and who also tried to put some sense on her mind.
When everything was revealed and when she had really felt that she was abandoned and all alone, she tried to kill herself by jumping in a bridge. Seven was there, who just realized how special she is to him and he saved her. Well, she survived death and have her friends back. They reconciled plus a bonus of having Seven as her boyfriend but she didn't end up marrying him but they were friends.
----- Hmmmmm...
One thing I am sooooo thankful for is that I gave my parents who are there for me. Maybe in some point of my life, I thought I am neglected and that I am the only person who commits mistake in their eyes. But during that one downfall of mine, I had my mom to catch me. The first time I have ever cried and shared what I feel to her. And even when people where scrutinizing me and questions the fact that why I transferred school and why I didn't graduate in time, I had my father saying that I shouldn't mind those people. They are all just bunch of nitwits who didn't understand my situation and that I should hold on coz they are there supporting me in my journey. Honestly, that time when my father and I had that talk, I really felt loved. I mean, that was one rare event and I really treasure it sooooo much. Another most valued moment of mine is when I won 2nd place during the PRISAA Computer Quiz Competition. They said, most especially my father that they are so proud of me. :)
Annika (the girl I was talking about) have Seven as her hero, her friend. Somehow, I also have mine... and maybe people knows who is it. Yeah... It is Gabrielle Isaac Aquino. Funny how he tried to punch some sense in my mind when I was so tatanga-tangahan with Maffy before. Also that time when I was so vulnerable and he stood up for me, cheered me up and how he made me happy. Right now, I can't tell what is our status. All i know is that what we have is complicated. My relationship with him is a mistake, if truth be told. He lives far away from me and he's got a girlfriend but he claims he loves me. As of the moment, we have no commitment with each other but I consider it that we are over. But we have a deal before...we will see each other in 3 years time. And if we are not committed with anybody, maybe we're really meant to be.
Honestly, I don't rely on the meant to be crap. I only want to meet him to fill out the empty spaces of knowing him personally despite everything and I am also hoping that we can still be friends. Good friends. :) But if not, well... that's simply how life goes right? You can't have all you want.
I am in a roller coaster ride to describe what my life is. I have my ups and downs where I have experienced almost all emotions. I can't say I am strong for every challenge but I am taking risks and I simply enjoy each of them. And one thing that holds me up is the thought that I have my parents behind me, my family and my friends. If they were not around, I maybe just another lonesome netizen who is socially incapable to do things. For that, I thank my family and friends for being there. :p
Problems are merely challenges that makes us more stronger in facing life as we go on with our journey in life. Let us not these test cripple us. Take risks to give your life journey a twist and some action. You may be hurt but that is just one of the spices to make your life more meaningful. Never give up and enjoy what life offers for you. :D
