i did not expect but i hoped... hoped to reach the top, the highest honor as i finish college...
but today, i know that i have lost that chance. It hurts...it is so frustrating... for almost 3 years of staying in STI, i have tried so hard to prove to myself and to everyone else that i can do it. That this chance can be my gift not just to myself but to my parents as well.
almost 4 months to go for graduation, when the guy from STI Tacloban enrolled here in Iloilo. Learning that he's got a GWA of 1.22 and hearing that he had finished almost 90% of his thesis made me feel pressured. Made me feel loosing. I hate it!!!
I know this is God's will but this really hurts. Disappointing. Frustrating. That's how i can define my situation right now. At a point earlier, i wanna complain. Why in Iloilo? There's a lot more STI Colleges in Manila. Why specifically here? I really hate it!
Somehow I have accepted my defeat. Maybe all I can do now is to do my best for my remaining subjects.
I am just sorry for myself, my parents and mommy Janice...
