see you later Maam Sky ^_^

One thing I so hate about myself is that I am so emotional. Especially if it relates to somebody so dear to me, or somebody I've been so fond of...example...if that somebody is leaving or the like.

Yesterday or was that the other day? I'm not sure..but I saw Maam Janice happily carrying a parcel which I conclude her VISA or any document that signifies her newest adventure to start soon. I didn't mind that much 'coz I was expecting that she will be leaving after the semester. BUT, this morning..I wasn't able to attend my last class with her :( which of course I didn't know it's the last. I need to finish my midterm exam in another subject, so I skipped our class with her. I really feel awful and regretful why I didn't finished that damned exam fast and that I wasn't able to even simply attend that last class with her. :(

When Amado told me about her leaving, I lost my focus for a bit coz I feel really really sad all of the sudden. And when Maam Janice hugged me in the library after she had her last instructions to her ADBASE students, I wasn't able to stop my tears from falling. The boys saw that and I am quite thankful they kept mum about it. And even now, just to think about her leaving hurts.

Who is Maam Janice anyway? Maam Janice is one of those awesome people I've ever met in my life. A hopeless romantic like me and also a fan. It's like somehow, I can see ME in her. She's like a big sister for me too. 

Well, I can't deny that I am sad about her leaving school, leaving the Philippines. But then, I am happier with the fact that she will be ON for another journey in her life. Another adventure to experience, more places to see and be with her hubby. :) The sadness is just for now, eventually, me and the others especially my lil sister Trixia will get over this. I know that Maam Janice is just a private message, a tweet, a skype call away. She will still be there even we will be miles apart from each other.

My message for Maam Janice...(naks!)

Well, you're ON for your journey that you've yearned for so long. Sa wakas! Well, saying take care and the likes sounds the same. I know you will, and He will always be there to guide and protect you. Hmmmm... Una ka lang, maapas lang kami. :) When you will be in Verona, say Hi to Juliet's place for me. :D Di lang ko danay magpadala letter, I will give the letter personally. :) And of course, kung makakadto ka man sa iban pa na place na matan-aw ta lang sa movies, Hi mo pa gid ako :D (lol)... Enjoy every moment of this journey of yours, conquer and survive the new adventures. We will terribly miss you. We love you and see you later Maam Sky :)

my wish came true, I saw and was with Young JV!

i don't know what to think but maybe it's a gift from HIM after our tiring preparations for the Acquaintance Party :)

Friday night, July 20, 2012... after our little after party in PIRATES KTV, we went to AURA TERRACE BAR. I actually kind of expected that JV and his gang will be in Smallville Complex but I didn't expect to see him in Aura. 

Well, like the usual me whenever I see my beloved celebrities...I went gaga... plus the fact that I was intoxicated it's so i so can't explain. lol...

How many times have I thanked Fatum and Sean...i can't remember. But i really owe them A LOT for standing by me when everyone scrutinized and looked at me like I am pathetic. Yeah maybe I am. But then... yeah...my wish came true...

I saw JV and I had a picture with him courtesy of my super girlfriend!!! and what's more is that I saw Ate Mich pa... it's a night to remember... 

<3 Lovin' this!!!

I know I am kind of so "undefined" in this photo..nonetheless... I was happy... :) Very much actually :D

whatz thuh meaning of thizzz?

Actually... i don't know if sa wakas natauhan na ako or what...it's just that I am giving him up for now...you know.. Gabb...

But then, if we are indeed meant for each other... well then, i am gonna see him at the right time. :)

He said he is coming here this June. I am not that thrilled coz I have this feeling that he is only doing that for me to expect something. That he is just making that up, like before. :(
Sad to say, he claims that he loves me more than he does with Veronica and yet, he can't give her up. He can't break up with her. He can't even fight for me. And the 'other woman' feeling creeps me. >_<

It hurts to lose him all over again. But this is the right thing to do. I don't want to hurt Veronica more...his official girlfriend. Plus the fact that I can't commit so so much, I still have many things to do...to accomplish. Unlike before, he is not part of my priorities now.

If ever we are not bound for each other. I know that somebody else worth all my love is there somewhere out there. In the right time, we will surely meet each other. :)

Single

phearlhaizah (May 13 2011)
dedicated to single pipz… ^^




There are times that being single for life
is one’s calling
and sometimes,
it’s simply one’s choice.


There are times
that people were so engrossed
with their career
that they neglect finding someone.


There are times
that people were badly hurt
that loving another
is difficult.


There are times
that people loves someone
they can’t love another
and they wait patiently.


There are times
that people were contented
on the life that they’re having
and a partner is not needed.


There are times
that people haven’t found
their special one
and they continue to search.


Many ‘why’ occur in our minds..
But whatever reason there maybe,
as long as friends and family are there,
continue to support, love and care..
the feeling of being alone will never be felt..

the flick

a fever
an epedemic
a disease
started by someone
as crazy as what we seem to be
a flick
so sweet
so dear
so cool
so....

sweet moments,
heart breaking torments
that seem to strike our hearts like a bow

each and every sweet scene
makes me wanna scream
because of the tingling
amazing feeling.

but when sad scenes appear
there come out the tears.
and if annoying scenes appear
there burst the unveiled temper.

somehow someway
some scenes we can relate
maybe for ourselves
and maybe for others.

no matter what would that be
the tingling sensation
caused by this phenomenon,
surely made me and my friends happy ^_^


~~>phearLhaizah
112010;07:11pm


in commemoration of the MISCHIEVOUS KISS (PLAYFUL KISS)

What's with me?

People find me noisy, eccentric, loner (at times), childish, moody and a lot more. What’s with me?(Hmm...Try to ask yourself as well what’s with you…hahaha)

I am just being me... ^_^
Whatever comes in my mind, well that's it! That is what my choice is on what to do, what to wear, what my decision will be..whatever...

Wall posts, status messages, tweets, blogs, notes... those are just some little ways where i express my thoughts, my feelings. I don't really care 'bout what people will gonna say about what they see on my profile but then somehow...we need to consider things so I spare a little time to think before posting messages, status or any other updates. Lots of people notice that I am always online and my wall or their news feeds were flooded by my status updates or say what facebook calls 'what's on your mind?' lol ^_^ And at times, people comments or tells me in person about some of my posts, photos and stuffs. Some of them were pissed I guess, and some were amazed how addicted I am with the social networking sites (but tell you... di pa ako addict sa lagay na to...i still sleep you know). 

For those who are pissed of me being so updated here in Facebook, you can unfriend me if you want ^_^ It's up to you... I don't post updates to please you, oh come on!

pondering bout myself....

I am mabait? hmmm... yeah i am! (pinag-isipan ko yan ng mga... 5 seconds...hahaha) I am good to those people who treats me well without any pretensions. I respect people and their beliefs as they are to me. What else?hmmm... I accept people for who and what they are especially those who have already touched and been a part of my life. There are times that people come and go of our life and some, stays. The people who stays or even if they just passed by, when they've proved something remarkably in my life, they are treasured and remembered...maybe not always but I am thankful for whatever memory I have shared with them. :) Why? coz i've learned things with those memories :)

I am bitch. That I soooooooo admit. I am not an angel nor a saint but I am also not a devil incarnate(hahahaha..)

Being a bitch comes being mean sometimes ;) especially if someone's pissing me off or if I don't like someone and at times if another mischief pops up in my mind. ^_^ Rude? Am i? Sometimes again... uhmmm.. wait up... rude and mean aren't synonymous right? :p hahahaha...

I remembered way back in highschool, after an activity in one of my subjects where we had messages for each other (me and my classmates), I was surprised that even those who I am not so close with finds me mabait. Weh? Di nga? Hahaha... and my reply for those mabait comments.. Thank you folks! ^_^ But some especially those who are close to me says I am mataray, maldita, weird, lukaluka.... oh men! You guys really know me...hahaha... chos! Thanks again people :p

If I don't like someone what do I do?Hmmm... I just keep my mouth shut and I don't converse like the usual me. There's some kind of levelling (levelling talaga?hahaha...or say...specificationsss...)  though when it comes to the word like :)

Sometimes, I don't like someone because he/she did something to me or my friends (I give chances to these people to make up for their mistake...but if it's gravely annoying or have caused a lot of pain...I close and lock my doors.)

There are also times that I don't like someone even without knowing him/her because he/she is simply annoying, or if his/her aura (ang tinatawag kong vibes ko....if my vibes towards someone is not good... its really a no no) is not releasing positive energy (madam auring lang ang drama?hahah).Hmmm... there's more..but i need to think about them first... ^_^

So after my long speech about how weirdo I am.. I hope you understood...What's with me? I am just being me... lol

from my Facebook Note
written December 23, 2011

Hopeless Romantic Me

People who really really know who i really am are aware of this fact. That the crazy foolish me is one hell of a hopeless romantic. ^^

Despite the fact that I am not so very lucky with my love life (chos!!!!), I still and will always believe in 'The Crazy Little Thing Called "LOVE"'. Not just because of the romantic flicks i watch or romance novels i read but also because of the fact that in every aspect (?hahahha...not sure of the right term to use...) of life, LOVE is existing. Whether that would be love shared by siblings, friends or family...or lovers. 


I've just finished reading two local romance novels from PHR. Achuli (actually)... it's been a while since the last time that some novels made an impact on me. That made me get up, open my pc and write something (this time...this note....) 


Well, since I've just got up from that unlucky relationship I had with someone (sa tanso ng buhay ko....na tinanso ako...char!)  and that had been quite a while now. I am not so into finding a special someone as of the moment...hahahahaha. But ohemgeeeeeeeeeee after I've read about Mr. Arrogant Jerk and Not Believer of Love Juan Crisostomo (Ibarra?????) and the yummy hottie hunkable fafalicious not so friendly devil of a supermodel Alexander Uijeliman together with their heroines, Trisha amd Erica.... everything has changed. 


OT: How nice to have the name of our bebe trish and the name sounds like the name of the efaced monster...so....oh well.... 


How come everything changed? Simply because... I know somewhere outthere in the middle of nowhere I will eventually meet (if di ko pa na meet...hahahah) Mr. The One. Char!  


Trisha met Juicy (or Mr. Juan Crisostomo) in one of the blasted moments of HIS life. He rejected two chicas who were so clingy after having  a date with him, and he got a slap and a splash of cold water in the face in his very own cafe where Trisha's seated and witnessed the interesting event. Then and there, Mr. Jerk met Ms. Romantic... and well... don't wanna finish the entire story here...But don't you find it sweet to have an unbeliever of love fall for someone that's way out of the league of the girls he was dating?...hai....


hahahaha got another one... 


Erica's having a new boss for a stalker. To dismiss him she went and tried to find a guy to pretend as her boyfriend and she found Mr. Cold Stare Alex.  Oh... did i say this is the story that affected me most? well... if i didn't...now i did...hahahaha 


The cold hearted and not simling and unfriendly devil found his happiness through her after quite sometime of being with her. And the witty crazy heroine found that the demigod supermodel's actually a human after all. Well of course they fell in love with each other but ohemgeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee they can't be together!!!! Why oh why? Because Mr. Supermodel got Satan for a mother...a conniving bitch...errr....


Anyway highway flyaway.... 


Khun Mae (mother in thai) threatened Zander that she will gonna ruin her life if Zander won't follow her orders. But hey hello hellouer... when Zander realized that he can't live without her and that there's still another way to protect her from his mother...he did what many people didn't expect from him. 


He kneeled to his mom and asked for his freedom. Hai...I am not so good in explaining but... he fought for her!!!!!!! Ain't that sweet and romantic???? 


Well... 


many may say...


that happy endings and prince charmings only exist on novels and fairytales. 


But...  


for me... 


they exist....


in different forms...in different ways...^^ 


that's all for now folks...








from my Facebook notes
written April 07, 2011...oh its a year now!!!

Matters of the Heart

"When you fall in love, sometimes you don't need to listen to your brain. You just have to use your heart." 


That's from Sonia Francesca's novel entitled Matters of the Heart. A novel that made me laugh because of all the silly things that the heroine did just to stop the rediculous wedding arrangement between the hero and his supoosedly fiancee, it's like "wow! someone can do all those silly things for the one they love...amazing!" Yeah, this is a fictional story but know what deep inside my thoughts, I have this notion that this also happens in real life. I've read somewhere, that in our life, nothing's impossible if your determined to do something. Real life story is boundless unlike to that of the fictional one where it is limited of what only the author have in mind. 


Some says when you fall in love don't just follow your heart, listen to your brain as well... they are kin of a bit contradictory to that of the quote above. Complicated. But when did matters of the heart had been that easy to figure out? There are moments where when we fall in love, we lose the proper way of thinking things especially in making decisions. Also, there are moments where even we're inlove, we don't let the idea of being inlove manipulate us. We still continue to follow what the society define as right, we still continue to follow what our minds says...coz you know at times, heart and brain are contradictory. 


Hmmm...say, let's have my experience as an example. Before, my friends were telling me to stop waiting for my ex (who is my boyfriend at that time) and have a breakup but I didn't listened to them. Also, daddy yuuki told me before not to have a boyfriend especially online coz I might just get hurt but I didn't obey. The result? I had my heart broken...coz I didn't listened to them. But then, I say that I learned my lesson.  


---that if someone doesn't give you any importance even they claim they love you...better stop. It's useless. Coz if they really do love you, they won't make you feel alone or unimportant. They will make you feel special as what you really mean to them. And of course lately, I learned more... If you have a boyfriend or a girlfriend, be sure that he/she don't have you for a partner just for certain reasons(sex, money, fame...), have someone who truly loves you. Someone who is really proud to have you as his girl or as her boy. Remember, you are one in a million. We all are... 


Another situation, some were so dignified (is that the right term?) that even if they love someone if he/she already have plans for his/her future, or if that someone didn't reach his standards, or with many other more reasons...they decided to follow their beliefs, their plans or whatever you may call it. And what happens? they end up regretting and hurt as well... Hmmm... Matters of Heart, a very broad topic to talk or debate about.


*from my Facebook notes ^_^ 
written last December 23, 2011

I am a STIer (Twisted College Years 2)

Opening of classes for A.Y. 2011-2012 in STI College Iloilo is June 13, 2011, but I attended school on the 14^th, for the 13th is just the time for me to be home from my Manila-Baguio escapade. Since I am a transferred student, I am kind of uneasy with the people around me plus the fact that I know NOBODY in that school.

Know the fact about having a shield around you to protect you from whatsoever? Well, that’s what I did. Many students thought that I am ‘mataray’ or the like and many of them were also wary of me because I am from the University of the Philippines. Honestly, I am ‘mataray’ yes. But I so don’t agree with the ‘from the UP thing’. Hellouer!!! We’re all just the same, we’re all students. We have our own capabilities.

Anyway, as days passed I had met friends. The first one I became so close with is a fellow transferee like I am, Jade. Jade is my classmate for almost all subjects, especially with the first and second year classes. She is also my number one supporter. :)

I had this schoolmate who I really thought was the son of the owner of the school where I later on discovered that he is a student assistant and just so close with the school staff that they were so cool with each other. Anyway, around a week or two after the opening, school orgs were introduced and of course hunting for new student council officers was done.

One time, as I was killing some time off and is reading manga online, some of my classmates were passing by, seated beside me and was jittery. Later on, I discovered that they wanted me to be a part of their party as PRO2. Well, I agreed. It’s for a change from the old bland life of mine to a challenging one. But then, I lost the election. I am the only one on the party who lost. Nonetheless, because of that, I became a part of a group of friends so-called “RHP or RytHuPhillians”.

Being in STI and a STIer made me realized a lot of things. Well, that includes about my acads. Before, when I was in UP…the important thing for me is to pass whether I learned things or not. Passing is just the goal, nothing else. But then I realized, passing subjects or courses is important but you can’t feel the essence of it if you didn’t learn a thing.

Java, one of the programming languages that gave me a headache and a subject I passed in UP without understanding much what’s the essence of it, the purpose of the syntax and everything. Then, when I stepped in STI, I appreciated the language. Loved it! And learned that it is not just a simple language that creates programs and applications but also systems. Of course, it still gave me a headache but not as bad as before because this time, I know how things go somehow. :)

In STI, it was my first time to join events like quiz bee and programming contests. I was even became a part of the group to compete for the regional INTO PROGRAMMING (Seniors). Also, it was my first time to attend the PROM. I haven’t experienced being in a PROM when I was in high school. Another first for me is to attend STI's annual National Youth Congress and be in Kalibo, Aklan. And I know there’s a lot more firsts bound for me in this school.

People ask me if where did I transfer and when they will hear my answer they usually have the question: “Why there? Why not in CPU or St. Pauls, etc?” I keep mum about it but this time I am giving you the answer.

At first, I am not sure what STI could offer to me. All I know is that “bet ko siya”. But after a year of studying in there, I realized that STI got lots of things to offer to me. Opportunities are open if I will strive harder. Maybe not as much as the opportunity that a UP graduate will be having but at least. And I am happy in this school. I need not compete with my instructors and lose myself in brain wrecking projects and assignments. All I need is to be myself, do the best that I could, enjoy and love what I do.

Many ask when I will graduate. I am kind of ashamed whenever people ask me ‘bout this and also pisses me off.  Ashamed for by this time I should be a college graduate already. Pisses me off, because if they are excited for me to graduate, how much more me? Right?

I have two more years to struggle and break free from being a college student and earn a degree. Maybe it’s still a long time but I know for sure that when I’ll finish this, I am ready to face the world of the information technology and as an individual.

I am a STIer. :)

Twisted College Years

College life, a step away to independence and real life. Where we are bound to experience a preview of being an adult. I didn't expect that I will be staying in college for more than 4 years. When I was in high school, I kind of like planned that I will finish my college years in 4 years time and after doing so...I'll find work and prove my worth to the people who degrade me. But because of the twists in my life...I am here...2 more years to struggle in order to achieve my dream.

When I received the UPCAT result before saying that I passed, I was so happy. Who wouldn't be? When I took the exam I was sick and can't concentrate well. Then...Oh la! I passed! But I took the last choice among the courses I wanna take. It saddened me that I will be staying more years on the town where I had my high school. Really not a good start.

My years in UP was not that thrilling. Of course I met friends, had crushes but my life is so stiff. My usual routine? School and home only. Not much social life. So bland. The only thing that spices it up is whenever I will see and be with my crush. <3

I learned and experienced a lot in UP. Had failures, many failures. I actually lost my confidence when i flanked one of my subjects for how many times. After my first year in UP, I asked my mother to allow me to shift to my first choice of course to take but they won't allow me. On my 2nd year 1st semester, I was diagnosed with typhoid which caused me to absent from my classes for almost a month due to my admission in the hospital and recovery. That's where all my flanking started. Anyway, I tried again to ask my mom, my parents for me to shift. Still they won't allow me. Tried several times until I really lost hope with my Math 54.

I prepared for my removal exams so so much because I wanna pass the subject and move on. But I didn't. It was the first time that I cried in front of my mother because of my failure. And then and there I told her that I don't wanna go back to UP anymore. I don't want to enroll there anymore. It's either I transfer school or I'll totally stop.

My mother kept that fact from my father, but told him I stopped for the second semester because I flanked. And later on told him that I wanted to transfer. At first they won't allow me to transfer saying that, UP will give me lots of opportunities in life despite all the failures. They kind of still pursued me to continue my studies in UP. But I stand firm on my decision. So they allowed me halfheartedly.

When I was allowed to transfer, many asked what course to take and what school to transfer. I realized, I don't want to be in any other field. It's like I can't see myself on another field aside from being a Comp Sci student. So Computer Science is still the course I want to take. School? Honestly, I wanted to study in Manila but my parents don't want me to so I have these schools for choices: WVSU, SPU, CPU, USA, AMA and STI. 

WVSU...a no no. It's kind of the same with UP plus the fact that my GWA is not that good.

SPU and CPU...another no no...school fees are way so high...and the crowd in there doesn't fit me (ang arte lang!!!)

USA...super no no... I have some kind of not so good impression with USA (sorry Agustinians!!!).

So down I go with AMA and STI. My very choices actually for they specialize on computer studies. So I went to visit those schools for assessment of my credited subjects and for observing also.

I went to AMA first. I don't know where it is!!! Well, I am so not the city girl so I had to take a cab to go there. A failure! I wasted 150+ bucks where I could be there for only 7php!!! Well, when I arrived at the building I was surprised to know that the school is above the grocery. Uhmm...kind of a turn off to me. But then, I continued and went to the admission office to inquire. The total turn off is that the admission officer i talked to is not what I expected her to be. She stands like a pro but when I talked to her, two thumbs down.    So I left the school after that and was in a total dilemma. I only got one school left. What will happen if it won't pass my standards? Dang!

The next day I went to STI. Again, I don't know it's actual location but at least I know that it's near WVSU. I went there with my usual get up. Khaki shorts and shirt. It's like i am a lost child. Hahaha... When I arrived there, the guard smiled at me and asked me what I need or what I came there for. When he learned that I wanted to inquire, he then told me to go inside the admission office. Well, the front liners were approachable especially Maam Carla. When they learned I am from UP, I had their total attention. They immediately assessed the credited subjects and everything. Asked me stuffs this and that. When they asked me if I wanted to enroll there, I told them that I will be talking about it first with my parents. But then and there I know that STI is the school that I wanted to transfer to. Actually they immediately gave me the possible subjects I am going to take if ever and the requirements I needed to pass. And before I left, I saw that they kept my assessed form on top of their files with the label "UP". I was overwhelmed. Hahaha...

So, I processed my requirements. Was asked why I will transfer from UP, why I chose STI and many more.    And before I enrolled myself, my mother asked me if i am really sure about my decision. I firmly said yes. Without being aware of what is in store for me....

----to be continued----

JACIA GT 2011

One of the dreams of being a JaCia fan is to be able to witness a get together between James, Tricia and their fans.An occasion that we thought will never ever happen. Many hindrances are on the way to achieve that, and thanks to the JaCia Bebe BOD...the chance to be with James and Tricia happened.

Last June 2011, before we separated our ways in Star City and decided to go home...I somehow promised and hoped that I will be attending the JaCia GT if ever it will really happen. And one of my Ates said that I will be there, I'd really be there. That made me cry because I am not just looking forward on meeting JaCia finally, but also to meet the rest of the PEXERS, TXTCLAN and the rest of the Bebes, as well as to be with my ates again.

Then a news came out that we will be having a GT on August 28, 2011. I was like... OMG! The date is soooooo near. I am not prepared! I am kind of like expecting that it will be around October or November and it turned out that it will be more than a month from the date it came out. With that i lost the confidence to be on the GT. To see and witness the awaited moment. I feel so sad :( and :depressed:

The rest of the BOD had been busy. Contacting people, collect funds (is collect the right word?) and organizing the event. Since I am kind of so far from them, all i could do is post details for the rest of the fans and umeepal lang minsan. 

My beloved Beverly Lumawag was so anxious. Wants me to be there kahit somehow I told her that there's no chance. Even my dearest bunso Tricia Adriano hopes that I'd be there too. I was like thinking and telling myself...hayyy sana nga. I didn't know they find ways and sources. ^_^ 

I don't know the exact date...maybe it's the 19th or 20th of August. After we had our Pizza Making in Pizza Hut SM City Iloilo (i am sooo not endorsing ha...but then love their 99ers ^_^), my friend who holds my phone the whole time told me that someone called up and was looking for me. Also, told him that I should contact her ASAP. I was curious who, then I saw on the log that it's Bhevs. I sent an text message to her and waited for her call. While waiting, I used my phone to access my Facebook account and there I saw Bhev's wall post saying that i can attend the GT! An angel will help me. I was like... ecstatic? Thrilled? I don't know...Hahaha... I was like shaking my friend and telling him that i could attend the GT and all. Then finally, Bhevs called up and explained everything... after the call, i jumped like a kid for i am so so so happy.

I then prepared for my new adventure as a bebe. Well, I somehow broke some rules again just to attend the GT but everything's worth it. Despite all the weird airline ticket transactions, all the mishaps, I am still on and was able to go there on the Grand Terrace in Quezon City.

On the day of the GT is my flight to Manila from Iloilo. Before going to the airport I should meet up with Bebe Daphnie to get the pictures from her for autograph signing but was not able to because of some miscommunication. Well, while waiting for bebe Daph to communicate with me and tell me her whereabouts, I went to the deptstore to buy a proper footwear (para naman pagharap ko sa JaCia prettyness at confident naman akez noh?since wala akong proper footwear that time). But we were not able to meet up coz of the time constraint.

When i arrived at the airport I was so frustrated to know that they have technical problems and they need to resort into manual check in and everything. Been standing in the line for more than an hour just to check in, thanks goodness that i went there early. Also because of the technical problems, the flight was delayed. I wanna shout out of frustration because Bhevs is already waiting for me and my message and of course, I don't want to be on the venue late!! It's a no no for i am the one in charged of the live stream. >_<

Well, my flight finally departed at around 4:30 which is supposedly 3pm and arrived an hour and a half later in Manila because of the weather issue this time. The good thing is... Bhevs fetched me together with ate Joan at the airport (thankfully ate Joan got a car!!!) and we fetched Bebe Khaye who supposed to fetch me also but well, she was stuck on a prior appointment and was late. And the four of us went to the venue while the rain is pouring and we're not so sure of the location of the venue (lol).

When we arrived we said our hi's and hello's to those that we recognized and off we went to the rest room to have our little make over. While we were on the rest room, Tricia arrived and went directly to the room reserved for them. Well, as everyone knows Bebe James was late because they were lost.

Some of the bebes had a little chitchat with both of them upstairs. And me? Well, I had a difficult time with the plug in. Thanks to ate dahl who brought her SUN Plugin with her, the Live stream is quite a success...lol...

Since bebe James was late and when he arrived he still need to prepare... the rest of us who are downstairs were in panic. The press were anxious and were already impatient, as well as some of the bebes. It's like we've become the crisis management team that time..lol

Then, out of the blue... Ate Malu made me the Masters of Ceremony!!! A big NO NO!!! But i had no choice...good thing, ate Jian and ate Mitzi were there to back me up. :) Thanks mga ate!!! While waiting, me and ate Mitzi practiced for the program... also, we goofed around the live-stream and posed for the bebes' cam and on the Photo booth as well... ^_^

as add on... ate Mitzi gave me some stuff's from our school...hehehe (Thanks ate...plus the shirt I wore was originally hers....she gave that to me...and i am so thankful ^_^)

When the party started, I had some bloopers. My Visayan accent was slightly noticeable especially for Bhevs' ears and pumiyok ako!!! Shucks!!! I am having cold feet while in front of everyone especially in front of the press people!!! There's a lot of them at that time!!! 

Well, one thing I loved being one of the MCs was the fact that I was able to witness the exchanged of moments between James and Trish. How James looked at Trish and vice versa. The exchange of smiles. And the happiness in their faces all throughout. There was a time that I wasn't able to stop my emotions and tears came out. The overwhelming feeling of being on the venue, on that very occasion. The thought that, "eto na!!! finally! Nangyayari na!" Even just the thought of it this moment still makes me cry. The happiness I felt that time is incomparable. 

Then the dancing part!!! In this part of the program except the QandA portion was one of the most memorable. I had the chance to dance with James!!! The epic part? I was the one who asked him to dance with me =))

At first I was soooo determined to ask him to dance with me. Why not? It's a chance of a lifetime!!! But then, when he accepted the offer, lead the way and danced with me... i felt ashamed..rather shy!!! The idea sinked in to me late!!! Hahahaha... And if ever you will have the chance to see the GT live stream... you will hear other bebes saying... Grabe si ate pearl oh!!! *tawa*

After the dancing...the epic question and answer between the press and them... the jamming with them...They were back on their throne and we had a little game. Well, another kilig moment for me because of bebe James was that...as he waited for me to spill the next question from the bebes, he smiled at me and winked!!! I was so like...fainted!!! OMG...lol....not literally though...

Then comes the picture at the photobooth... got lots of moments with them too!!!

Well, after that event...we also had the chance to have autograph signing with them... well... had a shirt and a CD signed by them ^_^ 

Maybe because I am a girl that most of my moments were with Bebe James alone. And of course there's the kilig factor!!! lels...

When I had the chance to take a pic with James... I asked ate Mel to take our picture, but because of excitement she forgot that her cam is in zoom so it turned out that the picture is a failure. Well... i am so determined to have a pic with him so together with my kambal...before he left we asked his handler that night for another picture. She said yes!!! And what a relief...

When he was about to leave, I tapped him in the shoulder (since he is way much taller than i am) and asked "Bebe James, can we have another pic?"  he said, "yeah sure! (smiling)" Me and Bebe Khaye have a picture with him :) Then we kissed his cheek as we said good bye :)

Really... The JaCia GT is a super adventure for me. After the party we have no place to stay in and bebe Ia offered her condo so we stayed there. Some of us stayed up till morning talking, and well they told me to sleep because I still got a flight home. For the record... I stayed in Manila that time for only 18hours! lol...

I am hoping that another get together will be organized again. But if it's not possible to be with JaCia, I hope that a get together between us bebes will happen. For the friendship and camaraderie between all of us. 

Some of us may have withdrawn, some of us maybe in rehab like me but continue to hope and some may still be as firm as before....but still, the friendship is there.... Whatever happens... we will be here for each other and for JaCia as well.

*I know this blog of mine is a roller coaster...I am sorry for that... my mind is as crazy as my blog!!! peace yow!!!

---- admin phearl (phearlhaizah)

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The Fan in Me

Admiring and supporting somebody or a group because of their talent or attributes. This is not about idolizing someone, to have someone as your idol to be called idol is quite not a good thing for me. I am a fan and I admire people because of their talent, their personality, physical attributes and maybe somehow... most of their whole being.

Being a fan is something in my old circle. They were in awe when they've learned about this and they never expected me to become one the supporters of whoever. That i would be able to attend mall shows, tours, get together or even simply by having photos with them.

Like other fans or say, supporters, I don't like that people make fun or are rude towards the people I support. Like how people judge Tricia Santos for being 'maarte' which was quite her signature during her PBB days. Or how people criticize James Reid as the Big Winner but is not popular like the old batches of the PBB teens. And how others question why I like and I support Young JV even with the fact that he is not that popular.

To have these guys to support made a mark in my life. They had been my other outlet of my frustrations before. They were the reason why even if things or life has been difficult for me, I still carry on. They inspire me.

I know that some people laugh at me for they think that I am stupid or foolish wasting my time for these people. But they doesn't know that at least with this, I am happy. And I feel the satisfaction even just to have a little time with Tricia (during the JaCia GT) or to be able to have a glimpse of James Reid and Young JV's smile.

Of course I know and I am aware that these people I support or i admire have flaws like anybody else. They are not perfect. And somehow, someway, together with some friends...if we notice that something is wrong with this people, we find our ways to let them know that. To let them know what is wrong with them and what are their mistakes. We are not fantards, we are not those kind of people who will just tolerate the wrong of the people they support or if we find something wrong with them we'll just leave them. We're so not like that.

Sometimes, celebrities consider their fans as their friends. But what all fans or supporters should take note is that however close we are to these people, we should know and we should be aware of our limitations. Let's not take advantage of the opportunities given to us, these celebrities are also human beings. They also want to have some privacy of their own. With their family or with themselves.

My life as a fan like we always describe is like riding a roller coaster. There are ups and downs. But if you truly support and love these people, you will continue to hold on and believe in them. It's not always a bliss to be someone's fan coz like the celebrity you support, you will also receive criticisms like i do.

Anyhow, I am happy with this. At times, I can attend to these guys' performance and at times I can't. And even if other people might not feel my presence being so active like i used to be, they should take note that I will always support these guys. ^_^